One Dimensional View to 3D Perspective

Dear Caleb,

Well, October is the start of the chain-link of holidays that is always such a sensitive time on my heart. I want to be more kind and loving, but for me to do this I had to remove myself from certain online social groups. I hope that our dear friends and family do not think that I do not care, I care so much, which is why I do not want to put myself in a place where I feel like I a judging them, or taking away their happiness by my comments, or non-comments- especially with these many family holidays soon arriving. I am choosing to let others be happy, and enjoy their time with their families; that I may learn to do the same in our own way.

I know that there is always hope to change, that there is always room to grow, but sometimes we do not allow each other that space to do so. As we imprison in our minds and hold on to the past without loving forgiving hearts, not being willing to let go, nor allowing space to see change. Perhaps we are scared because the past may sneak back in, perhaps we are scared because we do not want to get hurt, perhaps we are scared because there is just so much unknown.... but it is the chance that we always need to take. For that is what we want to be given by our Loving God, second, third, 100 chances, to prove that we are more devoted, more dedicated, more full of his love.

For these past 4 years I would shift from a one dimensional view, to a 3D perspective. When I am in the one dimensional view, all I can see, is what these mortal eyes can see- which is not every much, nor very far. My emotions sky rocket, and I tend to be more jittery and agitated. Being content is something that I try to force away, by trying to control every single moment to make my inner peace. But trying to force peace, is completely impossible. Peace is a gift, not something to be force upon anyone.

When I am in the 3D perspective, contentment and inner peace are my solid foundation. It allows me to see not only the now, but of tender moments of the past without pulling me down, and glimmers of the joyous future that can and will be ours someday. Seeing 3D keeps the jitters and being agitated away, and I am given smiles, and songs of my heart to where I have been caught humming again. My heart is filled with so much love for my God, his plan for our family, and the most tender expressions of appreciation for the atoning sacrifice of our Savior Jesus Christ. Peace is the gift that is given, and that is allowed to stay and be my constant friend.

One would think that having experienced of the 3D perspective over the one dimensional view, that it would just be a no brainer to think, 'Well, I think I will just stay right here,' but it is not that easy. But I am feeling more desires to see 3D, and obtaining more motivation in reaching this higher level faster when I find myself stuck in the lower one dimensional view of understanding. It is interesting to think that, this lower level is where I have accepted defeat for so long, but it is not where I choose to be anymore. It is a place where I can not be anymore if I want that joyous future that I have been promised, and seen.

For this is our time to shine forth, in taking a stand for what we want, and we Mathison's are choosing to stand strong together: "For what we know to be right and true, is who we are no matter what we do. It is time to smile, and to go that extra mile. We have been given a road less traveled, but on it blessings have been unraveled. It is time to smile, it is time to share, is is time to let the world know that we care. We stand together to find those hearts, that have been broken and feel like they have been torn apart. For we know what that ache can do, and how it just makes you want to stay blue. There is a higher way, for there is that joy that will come in that day. So we will reach out and take their hand, to get them up on their feet to stand. And give them that knowing look and a gentle squeeze, where they can feel encircled by love which brings them to their knees. It is our time to serve, it is our time to never swerve. Being grounded is what we need to be, that is the better way for us to see. Our love of our God is ever so strong, it is never a place for anyone to go wrong. Staying true to where your heart belongs, on your journey you will be given the gift of songs. To uplift and carry you along, back home to where we all belong."

Love You Our Missionary- God be with you till we meet again.
Love Always, Your Mommy

Inspirations By Tanya Nicole

My first Inspirations for you Caleb. Pictures by me, with quotes from your blog. Hoping to reach out to others through these Inspirational Touches. I feel that I have finally found my way to better serve both you and our family. Love you Very Much, Love Your Momma