Christmas- Thinking of YOU!!

Merriest Christmas To You Caleb!

We LOVE YOU!!

Thanksgiving- We're Thankful for YOU!

Team Angels 2016- Our Make A Difference Day

Making a Difference with Caleb on his Angel Week

 

My Baptized 8 Year Old Boys

You and Daddy

                                                  

 Your little brother and Daddy

This day was SO very difficult on so many levels:

1. Music was played that was at your memorial service.
2. Montey had a picture cake of his face too.
3. And he wore your baptismal white suit.
4. and just MORE.....

Both Daddy and I blawed our eyes as we saw your little brother in your white suit.

"I plead with you not to dwell on days now gone, nor to yearn vainly for yesterdays, however good those yesterdays may have been. The past is to be learned from but not lived in. We look back to claim the embers from the glowing experience but not the ashes. And when we have learned what we need to learn and have brought with us the best that we have experienced, then we look ahead, we remember that faith is always pointed toward the future." -Elder Jeffrey R Holland

 (Remember Lot's Wife: Faith is for the Future, Jan 12,2009, BYU Speeches.)

 

It is time for me to stop being like Lot's Wife- Her errors have been MY errors too:

 

. She didn't just look back, but she looked back longingly.

. Looked back with resentment toward the Lord for what He was asking her to leave behind.

. Her attachment to the past outweighed her confidence in the future.

. She doubted the Lord's ability to give her something better than she already had.

. She thought that nothing that lay ahead could possibly be as good as those moments she was 

  leaving behind.

 

"To yearn to go back to a world that cannot be lived in now: to be perennially dissatisfied with present circumstances and have only dismal views of the future: to miss the here-and-now-and-tomorrow because we are so trapped in the there-and-then-and- yesterday- these are some of the sins of Lot's wife, if we may call them that."

 

Love You Caleb. It's SO HARD to swallow that your little brother is the same age as you now... It breaks my heart, but it's time to put more faith in the future, Our Future as a Family, as a WHOLE.

 

Love Your Mommy

 

 

a valentine love note for my mom

dear mom,

i am still watching over you and i am glad that you finally know that i am doing good. i was sad when you thought it was all your fault as you would say sorry to me. i heard you everytime and i tried to come and hug you when you would cry. i know that you still worry about me you always did. and i know you really are worrying about my baby brother turning the age that i was. please remember i am watching my brother and sisters. it is going to be okay mom. remember when I told you this. soon we will all be together. but it is not time yet. i love to watch you laugh and smile it makes me feel happy. i hope that you can feel me smiling and laughing too. everything is going to be ok mom. thank you for being my mom and loving me.

i love you, Caleb