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Tuesday, April 26, 2011

The Season of Easter

Dear Caleb,

Recently, I am finding myself to be weighed down with emotions again- though I should been filled with joy from the promise of the blessings that this Easter Season brings. Our Prophet Thomas S Monson shared this about the Savior, he said, " His example points the way. When faced with temptation, He shunned it. When offered the world, He declined it. When asked for His life, He gave it."
There is NO other season that brings more Hope and gives a sense of Joy to be, as in this Easter Season. A former member of the 12 Apostles, Joseph B Wirthlin said, "Our work here is but a shadow of greater and unimaginable things to come." I look forward to that soon to be Joy so much that I have a very difficult time living this now. I get so impatient and so anxious just to have our family be together again. This temporary separation is so heavy on the heart, and yet I am grateful each day to have this pain because it keeps our family focused and keeps us working harder each day to be worthy of such a grand reward- with being an Eternal Family. It keeps me from falling into the comforts of this world, as I have done so many times before in the past. As is says in 2Nephi 28: 20-21 that so many of us will do this in these Last Days, it says, "At that day shall (the devil) lull them away into carnal security, that they will say: All is well in Zion; yea, Zion prospereth, all is well- and thus the devil cheateth their souls." How grateful I am to know better than to say All is Well. Only through Christ will ALL be made well and right. My broken heart rejoices to know that ALL can be made right again, that we can be together again Caleb. It is my only sole focus and goal in this my mortal probation. Any other goals and desires do NOT come close to the drive that I have for us as an Eternal Family. I cannot afford to bring more failure to our family, nor do I ever want to look you in the eyes with regret of what I knew I should have done, but did not. In the musical 'The Music Man' is says, "Live only for tomorrow, and you will have a lot of empty yesterdays." I unfortunately fall into this category. I focus so much on the future with the joy and peace that will come...though I think it is okay at times to do, being a strong remedy to help me keep my focus and to move forward- but it is also my downfall. Just to focus on the future could hurt our family now, keeping that balance is so difficult to do- especially when my broken heart longs to be mended, with being complete as a whole family again. Our Prophet, Thomas S. Monson said, "Your mind is a cupboard, and you stock the shelves." I have so many shelves stuffed with ideas, thoughts, hopes, joys of the future that over powers shelves that I need to use for today. Caleb, I know what I need to do, I know that I need to help our family by helping your siblings now- Here on earth with Dad and I, so that we all can be found worthy to come home, and be together. I really like the words from President Gordon B HInckley, he said, "As we train a new generation, so will the world be in a few years. If you are worried about the future, then look to the upbringing of your children." I do worry so much about our future as a family, but if I follow the counsel of our former Prophet, by focusing on helping Liahona, Tamara, and Montey now, that our future will be made right, that things will work out in the end. I know that our family will have our Happily Ever After Ending someday- though it may take longer than what I would want it to be, but if we can hold out strong, because of Christ ALL will be made right. Our prophet Thomas S Monson said, "We cannot afford to be complacent. We live in perilous times. May we ever follow the Prince of Peace, Who literally showed the way for us to follow, for by doing so, we will survive these turbulent times." Each New day I am so determined to live better, to be better, that I may help our family succeed with what has been allotted to us. We can and WILL do all that is required of us. Our love is too strong to fail us. We So Greatly Love You Buddy Boy.
Love Your Mommy

Memories:
Tamara remembers how Caleb loved to go fishing in the frog pond behind our house in Nebraska. He would get out his fishing pole from the garage and put it together and take it in the backyard to the pond, but he never caught anything. But almost did once says Liahona, she thought it was a baby fish.
Liahona remembers that every time Caleb would sleep in the girls room for Friday Night, Sleepover night, He would jump off the top bunk onto the floor piled with blankets and pillows. And he would say, "You gotta try that! It was Fun!"
Mom(Tanya) remembers how Caleb always wanted to listen to the 'Move It, Move It' song from Madagascar. Plus he loved to switch to the 'Alex on Spot' from Madagascar 2 on playlist.com
Dad(Eric) remembers how Caleb did NOT like germs. And how he wouldn't ever have to remind Caleb to wash his hands because he would always remember to do it himself, all on his own.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

10 months old

On April 23rd, 2002
You were 11 months old.

You were doing......
We were living......
You were starting to.......

(Soon to be filled in.)